It’s not easy to be a “change agent,” which I have been in one way or another all of my life. That is, I have guided individuals and organizations through the process of changing from one state to another as long as I can remember. Whether I’ve led an organization’s software conversion or led a person from addicted to healthy, the process has always involved several adjustments to new levels of normal. Adjustment is not easy, really. I’ve found that people handle change differently and although I know the process, the anxiety and frustration to which I expose myself as people accept the “new normal” of their lives always seems new with every endeavor.
I guess that’s why I’m drawn to still photography. The change process is developmental; there isn’t a switch that automagically brings state change. The truth is that steps are taken, over time, from which change actually occurs. But photography allows me to capture discreet moments and hold them still as the time changes those moments. When I set my lens on something or someone, I’m allowing myself to feel an illusionary permanence – there is nothing that stays the same, everything is being tossed around within time and space. But capturing a moment is like wrapping myself with a warm blanket that tells me, “This moment will be frozen in time forever.”
So I find trails to hike and scenes to watch just so that I can point my camera and release myself from my change agent role, even if only in discreet moments. That way, when I expose myself to the challenges that the adjustments associated with change bring, I am ready because, although I know that nothing stays the same, when I get the right light and focus, beauty can last forever.