You know me: I worry. It’s easy for me to get caught up in the fear that comes with being a parent. I obsessively think of all the things that could happen to our Christopher and my stomach will turn and tie itself into a knot. I’ll let the fear overwhelm me, sometimes, and become a worried mess of butterflied nerves and pacing legs. But then, I’ll see your eyes and remember the miracle with which I’ve been blessed: You are the soil in which Chris was raised — you’ve been his mother and role model of love and there’s nothing I am certain he’s learned his love lessons well…
I believe with every piece of grey matter floating in my concrete skull that you are the living embodiment of love itself. You extend your heart into Chris’ soul and it’s easy to see that his passion and intensity to live on his terms emerged from your nurturing. It’s easy to recognize your light when he gives more than he gets from his friends and it’s obvious that his search for love was born from the love you’ve given him.
But it isn’t just our Christopher that you’ve raised in love and light — you lift everyone you know with your loving eyes and glowing smile. There isn’t one person who isn’t better off in their life simply because of knowing you. When darkness casts a pall on our lives, we all know that we can close our eyes and hear your laugh; the darkness does not stand a chance against the very music that angel’s create. You are the most natural mother on the planet and I can’t think of anyone who would argue that point.
So, although I’m a mess of worry and fear, I always remember and trust that you are the foundation of the love in Chris’ heart. With that foundation, I know Chris is safe from every demon he can encounter. He will find his path because you are the light guiding his way.
