I’ve resigned my position as Chief Information Officer for the NM Regulation and Licensing Department. I have no idea what’s coming next. It’s like I jumped off of the high dive board and am hoping and praying that the pool below fills with water before I land.

The thing is, I’m not only hoping the water fills, I also want clean, bacteria free water. That is, I want to land in a situation in which I can operate from love. When I build a system from nothing, as I did with the cannabis licensing platform, there’s a rush and sense of accomplishment to which nothing else compares. When I write a document that leads to positive and healthy changes, it’s like I am living through a divine mission on earth. And when I find a solution to seemingly unsolvable problem, I know it is all that’s good and strong and beautiful guiding my thoughts and actions.

The problem for me is that over the last four (4) years I have been knee deep within political structures that I neither understand nor navigate well. They have been rife with landmines that I don’t detect before my foot triggers their explosions. The good news is that I don’t think many people navigate the current political climate very well. I’m not alone.

However, here I am at a crossroads where I have to choose between paths. The paths, however, are not clear and I have little desire to choose one and forsake all others. I know I want to solve technology problems. I also know that my community calls me to fight various demons on its behalf. Also, I know that when it comes to leading change, I am especially capable. Therefore, I hope I find the path(s) through which I can best deploy my skills and talents.

Whatever comes, my actions will derive from love, not fear. Plus, I will be purchasing a landmine detector. Recent history has shown me that it will be a wise investment.